When I came through the birth canal of my Awakening the Priest Process in 1998, emerging as the Priest Of The One Heart (we were requested to come up with a suitable name for our newly awakened masculine presence) and then immediately Knighted as Sir Gregory in the Order Of Tara, I was beginning to acknowledge I'd entered a very different archetypal arena, one where I really had very little experience in navigating - at least with my previously acquired and developed tools used in moving through my life up to that point.
I was amazed at how quickly my world was changing during this time - the entire emphasis of living in Sedona while attending The School Of Energy Mastery, of journeying through the nine month gestation process of the Awakening The Priest Process while going down to Brazil to delve into working with Ayawaska for extended periods along with a number of strong relationship experiences with power house women was totally if not kicking my ass, transforming it to the core.
Talk about an accelerated learning curve. It was a series of hair-pin sharp shifts that kept reminding me I was surfing in waves that were not just way over my head but in currents I had no idea where they lead or would possibly take me. To say I was out of my depth would be kindly put. I was living in the bulls eye center of the vortex target having no doubt on a Soul level requested to be transformed and evolved as quickly as possible - without actually dying to do so.
During this time, I was too enamored with becoming a Priest in The Fellowship Of Isis (the governing group that Nicole Christine had initiated through while developing the Awakening the Priestess Process) to see how fast the old landscape of my life was changing.
When she asked me to co-facilitate with her with a mixed Sacred Union group immediately after my Priest emergence, I was sure I could easily pull off this new engagement. Ha - boy was I ever mistaken ... and them some. I had absolutely no idea what was required of me to 'pull off' this Soul deep commitment of actually embodying the Sacred anything, let alone the Sacred Masculine presence.
Although I'm no longer bumbling through the forest as I did then, believe me, it's always a day by day, breath by breath awakening process that never leaves my life. I have to be It to do It and this applies to all endeavors of the Heart and Soul. You gotta be Present to really live the magnificence of your Being. There is no short cut or slide by with this One.
At the time I was freshly minted as a 'Priest '(the whole pretentiousness of this still brings a cringe) I was asked to present this awakening process to a group of men in the Phoenix area. All of whom had been eagerly pushed by their recently emerged Priestess girlfriends to attend, none however, especially enthusiastic about the whole idea in the first place.
When I stood before these questioning and slightly blank faces, it was like delivering a message without actually understanding the language therein. I felt like a cardboard cutout figure mouthing the words having little or no resonance with the meaning of what I was saying. I was just playing the role with little or not substance behind it. And I knew it as I believe on some level so did the men I spoke in front of ...
... to be continued ...
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