Friday, November 30, 2012

Only When You Give It All Will You Get It All


Commitment. The big C word. The push inside the force that drives us on, through thick, through thin when there is no thankful reason to keep going on. Except you have to because 1) you can't stop now, having invested way too much and 2) there really is no other choice but to push on through because what forced you to progress in the first place hasn't gone away. No, there is no turning back. Sorry. Goodness knows, anyone who is anyone who has achieved anything of value or worth in their lives has had to endeavor to persevere to reach their intended goal.

When it comes it raising your consciousness, this really applies, big time. The action of awakening the Sacred in your self is nothing if not raising your awareness from the densified depths of your temporal  reality to the more rarefied heights of your Spiritual essential nature. And it ain't so easy - because if it was, a lot more of us would be really happy already.

When it comes to moving houses for instance, the time required, the effort necessary, the amount of energy expended to go through your accumulates stuff to then see if you want to haul it along to the next place you live is considerable. And yet, to make the move into another place of residence, you have to leave where you've been. In retrospect, I've learned to do what I want to do having done things I never want to do again. I've evolved and moved along if only because I couldn't bare living in the suffering I knew too well.

When it comes to raising your awareness from the more densified depths of your temporal consciousness (with all the accumulated stuff therein), to then shift up the spiral to the more rarefied heights of your essentially Spiritual nature, takes a whole lot more day in day out determination than you can possible imagine. The reason is because if you could imagine the amount of Soul searching trench work needed, you wouldn't get out of bed ...

I was given this nugget of wisdom many years ago from a wonderful man I studied with in Sedona. I had signed up for a session with him and upon his request, had written 5 questions ahead of time to ask when he was hooked up to his higher guidance. After carefully preparing the list of important things I wanted answers to, the very first thing out of his mouth was just this - Only when you give it all Keith will you get it all ... and instantly dropped the paper onto the floor.

What else is there to say? and now I'm gonna ask when I'll be successful, happy in relationship with my one and only Soul mate, what? It caught me right between the eyes in it's utter zen like simplicity and directness. There have been few moments since that whenever in the pit of the parastalsic squeeze, sharp in the turn of the learning curve of trying to awaken that I haven't reflected back on that insight ... and felt the enormous weight of knowing I really didn't have it in me after all to get my ass all the way Home.

Over the years, there have been countless times when I felt the albatross around my neck of the commitment I'd made to Awaken The Sacred Masculine that I prayed to loose the beast of my Spiritual density, once and for all. I've found Spirit has a ridiculously long memory and holds us puny Humans to the magnificence of our true nature - which by golly, is to awaken fully and now to fully embody the shine of our Souls for all to see.

My wizened advice is you better want this prize more than anything else in this world because once on the treadmill of awakening, YOU CAN NEVER GET OFF. Never. That's the sneaky fine print to the consciousness contract. You buy the entire farm when you sign up to go the distance. Good luck, you're gonna need it. The good news is you have all the Grace in the Universe supporting you along the way.

... to be continued ...



















Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Getting Lucky


Whatever this means to you, however you interpret it, whenever it comes our way - what will I do when it lands in my life? Jessie Jackson once said - man is either too drunk or too indifferent to recognize opportunity when it knocks. At this time of exponential potential not just waiting in the wings but continuously cascading in and through our lives on Earth, what will we do with the Angels Blessings, not to mention our own, when they show up staring us in the face?

Awakening the Sacred in my life has meant I've had to nearly constantly choose whether to see the world through the eyes of my past or meet it fresh, clear and clean from this very present moment. The choice to retread it through the drama/trauma loops of my long and well entrenched pain body lens of misperception is ever the choice point for anyone on this path. For me, up until now, it was often a heads or tails flip as to which I might actually go with - I mean the past has so much seductive evidence that supports itself relentlessly ... and living from the leading with need mentality I so well developed, although by no means owned the rights to, kept me always wanting more more more and of course, this is what I kept getting - more of the same ol' same ol' unfulfillment, over and over again. Sound familiar?

The reality that you're getting exactly what you deeply desire (or better yet, what your Soul desires for you/Itself) has got to push up against all the conditioning saying exactly the opposite is possible. Or probable or even likely to be. Who are you to believe in your Self? I mean, really! And yet, if you don't, then who will? When does the self Love o'meter finally tip the scales past the mid point, the point of no return, to land on the Sunny side of the street, opening up the vista view of your Sacred self staring at you with laughter and Love in It's eyes?

How about now. What in the world are we waiting for? Do we really need another workshop, webinar or channeled message telling us how worthy of the Heaven's Blessings we are, all to finally convince you

Now Is The Time
Here Is The Place &
You Are The One

On this Full Moon Lunar Eclipse heralding the last time segment leading up to the who-knows-what's-gonna-happen December 21st big todo, it sure seems like an opportune time to actually live as if you were already the balls to the wall (ovaries for the ladies in the audience) version of your best Self. Put another way - who would you be and how would you act if you knew you were God?

How would each of us greet the day with this full-on radiance just bustin' lose, in and throughout every cell in your Being? With all the seemingly insignificant encounters with others we come across each and every day, if you knew you had just hit the all time biggest lotto and were living full time 24/7 ever more in the limitless land of OZ - and were the Wizard Itself, how would you show up in these moments? How would I?

Definitely kinder with a smile on my face, a word of encouragement, perhaps a compliment or sincere acknowledgement as well ... of course, living in NYC gives me so many opportunities to 'act as if' without provocation and believe me, on enough occasions I get the looks of suspicion, caution and incredulous doubt telling me I'm right on center.

Hey baby - IT'S SHOWTIME!

If not now, when
If not you, than who!?

...to be continued ...










Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Keep It Simple Because It Is


As the currents continue to swirl heading down the home stretch towards the fabled 2012, December 21st hoo ha Gateway (how us Humans Love signpost markers - are we there yet?)) with what all else is impacting us now, I keep remembering to remember to just keep it simple. As in this very breath happening right now. If I get too far away from this basic common denominator, I find myself on the outside looking in. And wondering why I'm not inside, consciously resting in my Heartspace.

I've been hearing all these stories of people who know people who have recently passed over as in died.
Like leaves falling off the limb, some dry with old age, others cut off the tree all too soon, they all represent the eternal shifting winds of time and our temporal lives along with them. In the Autumnal time of this year with the changing weather and ripened foliage turning colors and falling to Earth, I keep getting the feeling we're all on a ride we've absolutely no idea where it's headed. Really.

Some of us are going to pass through this long prophesied Gateway (2012-2015) alive in our bodies and others are gonna bag it and pull off the roadway. However on a Soul level, I have to believe we all get to complete the ride Home. No one gets left behind.

I keep coming upon another account of what will happen on this or that proposed date ... how yet another channel got the Word direct of how it's all gonna come down and it hits me NOBODY REALLY KNOWS WHAT THE F**K IS HAPPENING. That's why this cosmic event is so unprecedented. Not even the Angels really know. I have a dear friend who keeps going on about how we're all going to wake up in the 5th dimension (personally, I'm heading higher) - like POOF - Shangra La Land! Voila, we've arrived, just like that.

I get a bit squirrelly when she says this because I totally believe we're all gonna get more of what we already are, of where we are in our evolutionary progression, this is what get enhanced, if this is even the word that applies. Again, who knows? Like suddenly getting all lit up with a movie premier spot light, it only makes brighter whatever you're already wearing. You don't instantly change into Princess Grace or Cary Grant or whomever you just know you'd rather be in your perfect world.

I've always wondered the mind twist when suddenly finding out your date of birth was wrong all along and you're whole astrological sense of who you are has been miscalculated - oops ... what if on the 22nd of December it's revealed - oops, we got the date wrong. It's in another 350 yrs yet to come. Sorry about that ... Then what? Talk about a blown party!

I'll tell you what. Keep it simple - it's back to chop wood, carry water. The present moment never ends and is always the living doorway to well, being present. This is the only place where Spirit lives, where God exists, where your life takes place. This is the magic of the Heartspace awareness. It will always give you access to the truth. Always. What you do with it, is your business. Your mind however and your thoughts thereof, will always and only - at best - give you an interpretation of the truth of your Being, a version based on your conditioning, belief systems etc.

And for myself included and a great many of the rest of us, this can be a very sticky wicket indeed.
When it comes to Awakening The Sacred Masculine, in whatever gender form you happen to be living in,
to awaken it, you first have to be in It. Alas, the Heartspace place you wear ever present right in your very chest. Take a deep breath and feel it's welcoming invitation beckoning you Home. When the leaves fall hard with perhaps the trees following, I believe this awareness alone will pull me/you/us through the cosmic wormhole we're in the midst of.

... to be continued ...

Monday, November 26, 2012

Only Love Will Be Served


As I speak and connect with other conscious appearing men who I notice out and about during my day, often choosing to open up conversation after just meeting them, I sooner than later draw their attention to Awakening The Sacred Masculine. It's kinda an attention grabber ... there are so many ways to interpret this statement, most of which, at best, are long shots in the dark.

For years now, we've been hearing about the Sacred Feminine and with good reason. For those of us guys who've been doing this work for a while, I would venture to say many of our teachers have been strong, awakening women - how else can we learn about our conscious feminine natures if not through conscious women and yet, who's setting the mold, clearing the paths if not blazing the trail for us men.

We are. As I face these men strangers, often handing out my card requesting they get back with me (only if they themselves don't have a card for me to call), they always give me that quick urban glance wondering if I'm hitting on them and what possibly is my motive for striking up conversation in the first place. Let's face it, our world is ripe with the booty call hunt and no straight or gay man living in the city doesn't have a highly trained and attuned radar system when the hit is on.

However, when I mention the Sacred Masculine's Code of Honor it stops 'em in their tracks. What the f**k is this all about I quickly read on their faces - is this a New Age type come on or what? No, it's the essence of what this all comes down to - to do what we say and say what we do - to live in integrity with respect and honor - to serve Love always.

I find it has such as Arthurian ring to it. And in many respects, quite accurately does reflect that particular Round Table Code or creed of ethics expounded by those fabled knights of legend and myth. Whether  historically accurate is irrelevant. The blade of consciousness that cuts to the Heart of the matter (from the perspective of those times specifically), was about anchoring in the living force of Love in the ways of service to those less fortunate, capable or able to defend themselves.

Although I notice a fair amount of women in stress, not so many damsel's in distress do I come across. Not with these on the cutting edge, tough NY ladies running around out here - damsels they are not and to their immeasurable credit, have learned not to rely on a man to take care of them. Coming up through the ranks 15 or so yrs ago (at least in Sedona), most of the front line way showers were these awakening Goddess types who were the significant teachers and mentors in my personal and Spiritual development. To be sure and thank you all, I wouldn't be here without you ...

As the years moved along, I began to wonder when us guys would take up the mantel and get into the consciousness groove of things, so often hearing from the women in my life - actually lamenting - when would the men finally stand up and show up for ourselves and of course, for them as well? And did I ever do what I could do to do just this ... but as they say, you can't push the river or yank the bloom out of the bud. Man, did I have more years of sharp learning curves yet ahead. And steep ones too.

The thing that's changed now is I've finally arrived at the destination where I fully know I have no other choice but to do this work. Yes indeed, as the Universe forces us to our destiny, It did me to mine. Like looking for the missing piece to the puzzle or the musical note that completes the melody, when I aligned with the notion that I had to find and then live by my Soul's purpose, things began to become more clear in my world. Grace filled too.

Now I had a purpose to not only awaken but to serve, support, celebrate and inspire life around me! This gave me something (reallyreally important) to focus on and attend to outside of my self that in turn, served the greater good of all. No, I wasn't flying off the Haiti on relief missions, however, I was now thinking of the larger picture and not just on endlessly meeting my own needs. What a relief - I was starting to heal myself from that dreaded malady that had claimed me and many of my brother's attention for so long - MEitus.

Us guys Love to quest and have a larger calling, leading us forth - again, for the greatest good of all. I know I know, aside from us all being selfish bastards, we really get our deepest fulfillment from serving the tribe. It a pride of self thing. When we finally drop the self-serving, leading with need mentality, our lives take on a much greater significance. This I why our always serving Love will help heal humanity and if there's any chance remain of us living on his planet for many years to come, it will be this necessary shift that does it.

..to be continued ...












Saturday, November 24, 2012

It Can Be Lonely On The Edge


 I just wrote an email to a fellow I recently met, last week in fact, who has lived in NYC much if not all his life. Really nice guy. We agreed to do a session exchange with him receiving the day before Thanksgiving. For the past few years he's had a healing center in town, is well respected and a real sweet heart besides. I wrote to share some insights and ask him some advice. He being a local and all, in the business plus a New Millennium Man (a well integrated, developed and evolved New Age guy), I figured he'd have some much needed perspective upon which to draw.
As I've only been in NYC just over 4 mos. now, a new kid on the block, I wanted to ask if he would shed some light on something I've encountered while being here. It's a funny thing, this question I asked. He being an awakening man, I knew he would have some answers I would do well to hear. 
It had to do with real basic communication if not breakdowns, communication 'uncertainties' on my part. Over the last few weeks, I've written and called a number of guys in the consciousness community requesting a meet & greet. I wanted to introduce myself and get to know the men who had been here for a while. I personally have no aversion asking for directions when trying to find my way. When wanting to get the lay of the land so to speak, ask someone who's been there. So I asked or at least tried to. 
What I encountered puzzled me. Many of those I contacted either didn't respond at all or were non committal if not totally evasive. Now, I wasn't cold calling asking for money or the number to their girl friends ... only reaching out to connect in person. No, I don't have a wall flower personality nor am I Ethel Merman in drag. Somewhere in the middle, I'd say but who can really say about one's own reflection not being the surface that reflects it.
It was like something reacted in them that prevented them from following through on the uptake. Hey, I know we're all real busy with our lives here with hardly enough time to do all we already have to do. But not to return an email invite or phone call I thought was odd - especially after having met a few of them at a gathering for a mutual friend who introduced many of us all together.
Since being here, truth be told, I've let a few contacts slip through my fingers as well, Not everybody feels like someone I'd like to get to know or as we say, a resonant frequency. I stear my life by my internal guidance system and I too am rather discerning as to who I let in through the gates to my inner sanctum. And yet, what I kept encountering had a slightly different quality to it.
Being a very intuitive guy, I've come to know my intuition is always 100% right on. Always. I, however, don't always follow it or interpret it 100% accurately but I'm getting better as I go along . The reason I wrote S. is because I realized I was not only too close to the situation but indeed do have my own filtering clouding my perceptions, thus the reach out to get another man's point of view. Here, verbatim, is the letter I wrote yesterday to Mr S.  
  
Hey Good Man,

I trust this note finds you happy, well and perhaps a bit stuffed ...

I've had a series of downloads after our session the other day and if I could, would like to share them with you. Thank you for your time in reading this now.

First of all, know I take total responsibility and ownership of all my thoughts, feelings and insights - and am simply requesting you witness up and hold space for me if possible as this now unfolds ...

I so appreciate the shared space we as men are able to tap into as we co-create a very new way of being. Quite honestly S, it means the world to me.

With every atom in my Being I believe The Brotherhood will save us, along of course with The Sisterhood - that if not us, than who? As I step into this NYC gene pool, as mentioned, it's been interesting finding my way through the way people and specifically men, relate with me.

Aside from whatever intuitive reads I get as I go along, I'm fully aware that in order for us all to continue surviving on this planet, the men in humanity will have to communicate in very different ways now. To me, this is non-negotiable. We will have to connect with each other in ways that are indeed more complimentary than competitive, more user-friendly and less of the adversary. 

What I have experienced here are the now current and familiar levels of interplay and exchange patterns amongst us and yes, there are many more octaves and levels yet to come ... however, unless we learn to communicate our feelings as we go, completing the feedback loop, we remain largely looking from the outside in. Don't you think? I mean, to actually participate empoweredly with the waves of consciousness now flooding through, I believe we have to be at least willing to complete the circuit as the circuit presents Itself in our lives.

I fully know Spirit delivers Itself to Itself as us to engage, play, work and exchange with as we go through life  ... hey, I'm all for discernment mind you, I just haven't grown too distant to believe I can do it alone or really want to anymore.

I don't know about anyone else S but growing up I was the star athlete who always picked the most clumsy kid on the playground instead of him feeling judged, rejected and alone.

For me not to reach out to the new kid on the block isn't in my DNA.
To not extend an open hand let alone let one slid off mine isn't how I'm built.

And this again is the communication piece - we need witnesses and reference points from our brothers now, not to say that all duly expressed is accurate, true and supportive, however YOU HAVE TO SAY SOMETHING in response. The close up turn your back and walk away is really old paradigm.

I believe why it's a bit challenging for us to do this is because although we've been guided by the women in our lives to open up to our emotions by expressing our feelings with them, in order for men to really do this with each other we will have to go to a deeper degree of us Loving, liking and being open to ourselves first.

I've been called a Shadow Magnet, one who quirks up our other's self critical voice and dark persona and as always, it's easier to project this out on another ... it can be a lonely role to play at times, one that though actually Sacred, takes a very strong and clear sense of self/Self - of taking nothing too personally - and this of course has challenged me considerably, because (up until now) I took everything personally, feeling I was ever to blame. Really fucked up but there you have it.

Believe me S, I've been riding the waves of being in this world ever since hitchhiking away from home in '76 ,desperately trying to be a man. Questing to actualize what in my Heart was already a living reality and yet, in my present life experience, many many years way ahead over the often receding horizons ...in due time I've come to terms with my personal emotional body, it's patterns and tendency's and have learned to do what I do if only to save my own life. It don't just fall off a tree does this wisdom enter us.

However, the ache I sometimes now feel is an age old one of us all remaining in separation consciousness, I mean like forever - of actually willingly choosing it.

This terrifies me to my core this depth of aloneness and on some level, know it all too well.
Why else would I choose to follow this particular path now.

Maybe it's a Bodhisattva calling.
I really don't know.

This in part is why I'm writing you Sammy D.
I'm requesting help because I can't see how this looks from the outside and aside from just wanting a friend to give feedback, I figured you being you and all, would have a pretty good perspective to lend and eye here. Just a thought.

I acknowledge and send gratitude your way today.
I Always Wish You Well,

Keith

Friday, November 23, 2012

Going To The Heart Of The Matter

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While living in Sedona, I went through a Sacred sexuality healership phase in my facilitator training, one of the areas of discussion was how many women needed their yoni's healed, having had so much abuse and pain held if not trapped inside their wombs. And this is indeed so for a great many women.

With not only this life's often unfulfilling, painful and perhaps abusive experiences adding to the layers of accumulated trauma, along with their past lives of karmic imprints imbedded, I came to realize as well as the valuable and quite necessary ways to assist in the release of these energetic wounds,
most of all, women needed their Hearts healed.

In everyone I encountered, it was here there were significant memories, often painful, long held and locked away for just the moment a capable and conscious man would help transform these ghosts of sexuality past. However truth be told, I found few men evolved and clear enough to do this work from this awareness.

As an exception, I had a great friend David C. who in all his considerable mastery took me through the process of first creating Sacred space to invite a women into, then showing me ways to allow these women to invite me into their openings to do Sacred Spot work. Needless to say, it was quite moving, profound and powerful for all involved. As a man in all respects, finally able to help undo the enormous misuse and abuse of power overlays painfully imprinted in a woman's most sensitive emotional and physical body parts, was a dream come true.

For those of us that do this kind of work, we live for the openings created in another that allows them to feel more safe, free and empowered once again. I think you have to be born for it. Of all the personal satisfaction highs available in this world, it takes a unique kind of person who Loves attending to the woundedness of others.

I suppose it essentially comes down to compassion doesn't it? It's in feeling another's suffering and their inability to get out of it on their own that has tempered my abilities as a practitioner and elevated my breathtaking respect for those who choose to face their pain, once and for all. No, not for the faint of Heart or weak of self worth. You have to know you are worth being happy, fulfilled and free of your trauma dramas to crawl into and through and out of the tight crevices of your pain body.

And this is where the empowered Heartspace comes into play. In truth, we can't do our deepest healing alone and we're not supposed to either. We need allies to assist us. By alone I mean from our thinking, rational and reasoning minds. Although most amazing tools in a great many ways, this aspect of ourselves just doesn't contain the ability to create the quality of transform necessary to effectively remove, heal and release us of our suffering.

It is the Heart and Heartspace alone that can do this.

This is why on the header of my blog and written in the very first sentence of this mission statement, it is in and through our empowered Hearts we awaken and come to know the Sacred within ourselves and our lives. I know it may sound simple and I suppose by definition it is, however, not so easy is it at all. And yet, if you invest your sincere attention and commitment, the results will far outweigh whatever effort expended and deliver you to your greatest and deepest fulfillment possible.

As an aside - with whatever skills I've developed, techniques and modalities accrued along the way to hone my craft, for those receiving my work, it's in conscious Loving kindness that allows the magic and grace to flow the most.

...to be continued ...













Thursday, November 22, 2012

To What Do I Give The Reason To Close My Heart?


Hey, it really is a choice. Each and every day, over and over again we are given the opportunity to either open or close our Hearts - to others in our lives, to our world in general and most importantly, to ourselves. It's subtle and not so subtle after all.

By intention, The Awakening Sacred Masculine has pledged to open and empower his Heartspace awareness - at all costs, no matter what. To embody the Sacred in all our lives depends on doing just this. simply put - we get to Heaven through our open Hearts. We might have bad posture and still slip in or even bad breath but alas, the closed Heart does not it's entrance make. No way.

Throughout my adult life and the years spent trying trying trying to open my Heart, it was when I finally faced and embraced all the reasons I chose to close it in the first place, that I really started getting traction. It was looking closely at all the moments I was on quick trigger mode, pre-programed through my rich and consistent masculine mass unconsciousness conditioning that I began to see how deeply ingrained my behavior patterns actually were.

To catch myself and take a breath before I reacted in push-away has taken years to learn how to do, a number of relationships the cost paid to acquire the insights necessary to get a grasp on how I just couldn't let go of my fear, isolation and oh yeah, my judgment. I was always so quick to judge and sometimes still am when faced with something or someone I get triggered by. Sound familiar?

As well you all know, there are just so many strange ass people in this world, especially in NYC, though by no means does this place own the franchise. We're everywhere! The beautiful thing about 'getting' compassion, I mean really planted deep down inside of you is no one is ever exempt from the grand ongoing let-go, let God 'handle this please' response in life. It's a choice, each step of the way. For those having had their Hearts beaten open or perhaps better said, broken open, the way most often taken to get this most precious Sacred Gift is found in the trenches of your own Human suffering.

You don't get this one from a catchy webinar or video series or a few good yoga classes. You gotta earn it, each tear at a time. At least this has been so for me and those I've worked with and observed over the years. The currency of consciousness and the commodity exchange required is always Loving the parts of ourselves we hate, loathe and deny the most. There is no other way to enter the Gateways to Heaven within yourself unless you do.

As Ganga Ji says - Your devotion to love must become stronger than your attachment to suffering.

This path of Awakening The Sacred is a most demanding one, fraught with the perils of your ego personality fighting you each step of the way. To face you ego's need to control your consciousness and go toe to toe with your unconscious belief systems and pre-conditioning takes balls the size of King Kong's and a near masochistic willingness to do whatever it take to finally come Home. You really gotta want it, in fact more than anything else ... seek ye first the Kingdom of Heaven ... and all that.

When I was first initiated into this whole Awakening The Sacred Masculine thing (at least in this life, in 1997) and continued calling the Christ into me in all those ceremonies since, I eventually realized that the hidden small print stated that if I did, I couldn't ever close it down again. Not totally. The relative comfort and convenience so long imbedded, with the gut reaction to push away what didn't please me just didn't fly anymore. Instead, those behavior patterns began to drown me.

To get off the burning dock of my narrow mindedness, I've had to continuously commit to jumping onto the floating boat. As in God can't catch you unless you jump. And quite profoundly, the jumps don't ever stop ... a number of years ago, I went through an Ayahuasca phase, traveling down to Brazil to work with a shaman there. This old guy who after journeying hundreds if not thousands of time said each and every time he drinks the juice, he has to let go and be willing to die.

No matter how many years you've meditated, medicated, masticated or masturbated, each and every orgasm happens in this very present moment. There's just escaping it. Each and every time I get pissed off, I have the widow of opportunity to shift from my head to my Heart, from my reactive judgments to my Heartspace compassion, knowing full well this schmuck before me is not only a direct mirror to me but believe it or not, doing his very best with what all he has to work with at the time.

How can I really fault him for his Humanness, his Humanity in full and funky display?
Unconditional Love is not unconditional like - I don't have to like everything in this world and surely do not, however to embody the Sacred in my life, I've had to learn to Love it all, that's for sure. Starting with  my most funky and nasty shit, first and foremost.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING Y"ALL

...to be continued ...

 



Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Don't Dim Your Light Just Because Others Squint


Don't you know, I've spent my life always seeking the approval of others - to validate me, to like me and to Love me. Raised in a household where Love was conditional and how it was doled out depended on how I did or didn't please my parents, the imprints of my co-dependence were deeply set in infancy. I believe this is so for many men today.

Because my personal reference of self worth was always externally based, I've tried (unsuccessfully I might add) to gather my strength from the outside world ... and in so doing, totally lost my inner-direction compass. Over my life, this has caused me to abandon, abdicate and compromise my personal values, as if I ever really knew what they were to begin with. I have lived largely from a place of insecurity and uncertainty. From my conditioning from youth, my sense of self often went to the highest bidder.

Thankfully, though much to the chagrin of my betters, I've kept my childlike impetuousness, spunk and enthusiasm fairly intact. Like a stubborn newborn holding onto their favorite rattle, I've held out on totally believing the lies I inherited that my value was dependent on pleasing others. Though I have tried ... often in the bargain, making everyone around me miserable.

As I years ago pledged to Awaken The Sacred Masculine, jumping perhaps at the biggest bone of all, the bone held in God's hands, over and over again I realized, The Beloved's Love couldn't be bought by my feeble negotiations and manipulations to get my needs met. I had to do that for myself. Only then could I stand high and tall on my own two feet to reach up and grasp Her outreached palm. But I had to believe I was worthy enough to value my self enough to know I was worth Loving in the first place.

Throughout my awakening life, I've looked for usable tools of consciousness to help guide me Home. I'm a practical guy. Maybe its the Capricorn thing, I can't say. All I know, is that as with me, I believe we all need the dependable pathways to follow within our lives that will bring us into our Heart's embrace within ourselves. Again, this only we can do.

For this reason, I developed my Spiritual life practice and in turn, my personal constitutionals to fortify, clarify, wholify, strengthen and vitalize my core sense of self. As with religiously doing crunches, when my core is strong, the rest of me is as well. As I've chosen to evolve to embody the Awakened Sacred Masculine, it has caused me to look deeply inside to gain insights, awareness and permission to be all I can be or rather, already Am. Yes, only we ourselves can ever give us this validation and approval to excel and consciously evolve into our essentially Divine natures.

Hey, if it were snap snap, zippity quick, we'd all have already embodied our Christ Self. These 'constitutionals' are the handful of activities I've identified over the years that keep me healthy, happy, sane and at peace within myself. I know I have to address and attend to the four basic pillars supporting my castle - the Spiritual, the physical, the mental and the emotional structures of my life. In order to maintain my overall wellness, I have to be mindful and responsible to meet my own needs. This of course, lets the rest of the world off the hook to do what is only up to me to do. Funny how this works.

The work I do - Awakening The Sacred Masculine At The Turning Of The Ages is all about identifying these essential elements of my/our lives and being 100% self-responsible to keep to 'em enlivened, healthy, fluid and strong. As I continue shinning the Light of my consciousness through my empowered open Heartspace, the rest of my life continues to shine. And this can sometime piss off others who haven't turned their Self Love on in their lives.

As my very dearest friend Susie B. once said - happy people make unhappy people unhappier. Having geared my self worth to the dial of others approval, this amazing shift in the directional flow of my Love has made all the difference in the world.

... to be continued ...

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

The Only Way Out Is Through

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Of all the wisdom nuggets, this little ditty has been a most difficult maxim to embrace. As with perhaps most of us, I've, up until now. always chosen to run fastest and farthest from that which most challenged me. Hey, it's only natural, if not sensible to move away from what is threatening or in someway dangerous. In this respect, it takes a special person to willingly face up to the very thing that forces us to change and potentially grow and evolve. Especially if it means facing my shit.

However this actually works in nature, I believe adverse circumstances are the very reasons that cause and create change to occur in a species. It's out of necessity that evolution unfolds. For me in my quest to awaken to the Sacred within me, this has certainly been the case. For instance, if I could have stayed blissfully ignorant (relatively speaking) of how damaging my decade-long use of coke was (ah, the '80's), I'd still me waking up with mind splitting headaches, nose bleeds, broke as hell and well, not so blissful after all.

Let's face it, there's nothing better to motivate us Humans than pain. It is the only thing, if anything, that really gets our attention. And yet, to go face to face with substance addiction for instance, you have to be a bit masochistic to begin with. Because passing through those most demanding dragons at the gate of my self empowerment required I face all I was running from. A whole lot.

Honestly, I did enough drugs throughout my lounge lizard career to buy South America. Unlike many, I made it through fairly intact, though with a whole lot less money I might have had had I gone the straight and narrow. But then again, I wouldn't have nearly the outrageous stories I've accrued over those years tending bar here in NYC and on South Beach, Miami and these are just the ones I can remember. Besides, my chosen life path this time around was to Awaken fully and to do this, I simply had to face and embrace all that has ever stood in the way of my knowing I was Loved, Lovable and Love incarnate. Believe me, it sounds way better in theory than it really is in the field.

However, the small print and at times, Vegas sized neon writing on this particular Soul contract states, you can run but you can't hide from whatever stands in your way. Period. That's why it's called self mastery and not self pretty good. This especially goes for the day to day shit as well as these long, dark and nasty behavioral patterns like drug addiction ... take for instance, by circumstance a person in my life I'm around these days. For whatever reason, I often hear them react very defensively to things I say. I mean, nearly all the time. 

Of course when I point this out to them, they immediately say in that oh so triggered voice - I'm not defensive! A sure giveaway by the way. She just doesn't get it, like thick as a brick! After a while, it began to make me nuts. I happen to be sharing living quarters with this person (without the hanky panky), which makes it all too close for comfort. This is to say, out in the world I can easily distance myself from off-the-wall reactivity I see, you just don't survive in NYC unless you do. However, in my home space, it's just too much to comfortably deal with.

At times, us empathic types require extra safe handling to move through this world with a semblance of grace and ease. We need our safe home sanctuary. A bit fussy we can be, at least I am. Anyway, for whatever reasons, I've created this situation to alas, move through. Hopefully consciously. Believing I do indeed create my reality 100% day in day out, I can't disallow or disregard this situation or her from my awareness.

I gotta meet it in this way - as in what does it have to show me that will help me be more Loving, Lovable and Love-like with them as well as myself. Damn, not that again! Especially when they're so wrong ...Ha!

It's easy to hit aces in my Love game when all is well in OZ but when the wicked witch starts throwing hard curves and change ups, my game falls apart. The Sacred is a most demanding task master if not mistress, only my very best will do. By the way, this person I'm referring to has been way over the top generous with me, I mean, above and beyond. In this respect, she is a huge Blessing in my life. I also know, however, she's created me in her life to potentially do the same for her, to help her return Home inside of herself.

Whether she does this through this circumstance is her business, we all have our shot at the title and yet, if only because she reacts defensively, it tells me she's feeling somehow attacked. And this gets my attention. Am I too sharp with her, to demanding or judgmental? Even though she initially said she had requested a teacher come into her life, believing in fact I was, when the heat gets turned up on her unconsciousness, yes, she reacts. Goodness knows, I've been the poster boy on that behavior pattern.I mean, upfront and center.

Ah, so there you go - is it an all too close reflection of something in me after all? Duh - good chance. Oh well, back to the basics again ... be present in my Heartspace, align in my Verticality, ground into the Earth beneath my feet and pray pray pray I don't choke the living daylights outta her!

... to be continued ...










Sunday, November 18, 2012

You Just Have To Pray


I was on a radio interview the other day and when asked what someone in their Dark Night of The Soul passage could do to pull themselves through, the first thing that popped into my head - was pray. To quote Einstein: a mind can't figure out the solution to a problem that that mind created. You have to go to another source of insight, above beyond and away with hopefully a greater field of awareness to get your answers.

Aside from the Middle Ages hokus pokus of modern psychology and the all too heavy reliance of medication ingestion to solve/squelch & stuff our most difficult emotions - so messy, aren't they? The only way out is through. Sorry about that folks. If only there was an easier way ... and alas, there isn't. However, there is a simpler one. And for this cure, you gotta go to God or Holy Spirit or The Beloved or Source Creator or whatever you need to call the greater part of WHAT YOU ARE.

It actually is this simple although not so easy -, you just have to want it more than anything else.
Yet how to do this simple thing? Breathe Be present Get into your body and come to rest in your Heartspace ... here you will feel this very precious moment unfolding, Here & Now - as if it were the only moment you will ever be alive ... and in fact, it really is.

For this reason, the Heart Chakra is called The Grand Crucible of Transformation and for good measure, The Golden Doorway Home. This Sacred place is the fusion point, merging Heaven & Earth, Spirit & Flesh. It is only here We Are All One.

Yes, to be sure for all us stuffed full of shit types, of which I was definitely one, there is a fair amount of emotive healing work necessary to do in order to get through the mine and mind fields. To crack into and crack apart the enormous amount of repressed and unprocessed blocked energy trapped within us (certainly most of us guys would fit this description), you really do need a qualified ally to walk this walk. In my experience, you will need someone who has themselves walked through their own Shadowlands and come out intact, in truth, better for it

Believe me, the difference between someone who speaks from the depths of their struggle survived, conquered and embraced and not the fluffy New Age party line is all the difference you'll ever need. And yet, you'll have to face your Shadow on your own - and you can't do it all alone.

Us men have a real hard time with this one. I don't know about the next guy but personally speaking, I was real hesitant to feel my feelings and break down and cry in front of others, let me tell you. When I first went to healing school in '96, I found it impossible to let others see me feel the real funky stuff I'd kept inside for like forever. I mean the darkness I'd been holding on for all of my life. This was the crusty, emotional salt block monster that was way bigger than I though I ever was that caused me - once I was Blessed enough to actually get in touch with it - to double clutch sob with snot coming out of my nose kinda crying. Man, what a sight.

No way, I was gonna let someone else see me in this state - how embarrassing! And yet, this was a huge passage for me and the ticket of admission to the temple of my deepest healing. I had to be willing to first feel this shit and then reveal it for others to witness. To transform it, I couldn't keep holding on to it, keeping it out of the light of day, keeping it hidden inside hoping no one else could see my pain (they could), believing they would turn away if they saw me this weak (they didn't) and remaining stuck in my Shadow abyss for all time more. Sorry, been there done that and the T shirt didn't fit anyway.

Most of us walking around haven't gone here yet.
And to get Home in this life, you will most probably have to.
And I can help.

... to be continued ...

Saturday, November 17, 2012

It Is All About Love


Love is an action word. It is short for Loving and in the context of the Sacred Masculine, of being the living force of Love in this world. One of the primary qualities to the masculine archetype is that of having a purpose in life to fulfill and more important, choosing to live form his purpose, day in day out. It really is this simple - our action oriented drive is to express our Lifeforce into the world. Up until now, this hasn't always looked so pretty or conscious or especially interested in the welfare of those in our lives.

This drive to create, to participate and to procreate is a defining aspect of what the masculine is all about. And boy, has this last attribute gotten us into trouble over the ages. Now however, the need to procreate awakened consciousness is the inner fire that moves through us to ignite others in our lives. We are becoming attuned to the energetic time-codes opening within us to awaken to our eternal nature, the Sacred, the Divine - the Christ Consciousness reborn.

The Soul markers are now coming due to finally embody the Sacred in our lives - as if we ourselves are the actual living embodied expression of the Christ alive. The waiting is over. All that has ever been Lovingly, consistently and gratefully invested in us throughout our Soul's journey, on a very deepest of levels, has been to bring us to the individual and collective point of yes, AWAKENING to the Diving we are.

Now Is The Time
Here is The Place and
We Are The One

As the quickening continues sweeping open the doors upon the planet, as people of all walks of life are awakening to the undeniable truth that yes indeed, we are in this thing together and to collectively survive, we collectively have to show up in very different ways now. The man in Humanity has a fundamental choice to make and to be sure is the core intention of Awakening The Sacred masculine At The Turning Of the Ages - it's Show Time!

For me and this is largely true of anyone who has trained long and had to perform a function, a service, an act of contribution and intense personal expression, whether artistic or athletic, that when the starting bell rings, all that has pushed us to excel comes to the fore. It's Human nature to share ourselves with each other. As social animals, we need to see and be seen. In this respect, the feedback loop is a necessary function of our species and without it, we eventually starve and shrivel away.

Back when I was training in and offering infant massage classes to young mothers, I read that in remote, third world orphanages where there were just too many children to be Lovingly touched and held, a large percentage of infants simply died away. (And many of those who did survive had significant social, emotional and mental imbalances as a result.) No wonder those of us who weren't adequately nurtured as newborns have had if not significant learning disabilities to deal with, considerable addictive tendencies and overly needy emotional tendencies in place that have made being a conscious and productive member of humanity difficult to nearly impossible to pull off. Just a thought ...

So now, as the long awaited 2012 Gateway unfolds for us all living on Earth, who among us men will rise to the occasion and seize the moment? Who of us all here, women and men alike, will answer the clarion call to Awaken to the Sacred within yourselves, once and for all? Because not only doesn't it take a weatherman to tell us which way the wind is blowing, it doesn't take a prophet to tell us the writing is thick on the wall for humanity to either awaken or die.

Now is the time. However you come to this choice point in your lives, the opportunity to play on a much grander level is beckoning you to just stand up and show up for yourselves to now fulfill your Soul's promise, here and now. Yet so much more important, for each other in this Sacred way. In this respect, It really is going from me to WE. Within our very hard drive design on a Soul level is the built in need to replay the Blessing by being the Blessing out in the world.

 Again, Love is an action word or rather a living force of pure source Lifeforce created to initiate, ignite and proactively embody the Christ consciousness. Are you up for this once in a Soul time invitation?

... to be continued ...


Thursday, November 15, 2012

You Have To Do It For Yourself & You Can't Do It Alone


Whatever moves a man to choose to awaken to the Sacred within himself, it has to be for his own reasons. This of course applies equally to women as well. On a Soul deep level, the impetus to return Home to the Sacred within is on the one hand an individual decision (most often born form a large degree of suffering and dissatisfaction from having lived in the world too long) and yet, no way no how can we do this totally on our own.

We need each other. To remind us to encourage us to hold us to support us to Love us along the way.

As men, this is real tricky business. Buried deep in our personality structures, formed from the archetypal unconscious masculine mass consciousness, locked in our very DNA (and for all good reasons to be sure) is the belief we have to do it on our own. It's the 'Lone Wolf' mentality which throughout history, has made us so enduring to the women in our lives. Not!

There are so many legitimate reasons for this, all having to do with our survival instincts and certainly on an emotional level, it sure make perfect sense. Because in order to survive, up until now, we've had to cut ourselves off from our feeling nature, all to do what we've had to do to stay alive in this world, which is on the most basic of levels, simply put: kill or be killed.

Whether it was running away from dinosaurs or monster beasts only with a stick in our hands or fighting off the invading forces attacking from the next village over, it's been tough going out here in Earthland. Not for the wimpy, faint of Heart or weak of limb, this. And yet, as we sit snugly in the 2012 Gateway, an event long told throughout history as a 'once in creation' portal of Universal awakening (what does that mean anyway!?), the old ways of being a man just ain't gonna cut it anymore.

We just can't do it all alone. At all. And we're not supposed to either. We have to learn to get in touch with our deeper emotions by opening our Hearts and coming to rest within our empowered Heartspaces once again. This is our gateway to awakening to the Sacred and our pathways to finally reach Home within our individual and collective consciousnesses. The time has come to put down our swords upon the battlefields within ourselves and stop fighting each other to prove our self worth and individual need to be right, in control or in charge.

And to do this we need each other. We need to awaken the Brotherhood - big time. Bringing it back to basic Human functioning - try learning how to walk without a hand to assist, hold and pick you up when you fall. How about learning to tie your shoes, let along feed yourselves ... I know a lot of men who still have trouble doing these things on their own.

However, this is a brand new day upon this planet. The waves of ascending consciousness are waking up people from around the world from all walks of life, regardless of social, cultural, political, genderal, religious or economic affiliations. And all other markers of distinction as well. We all gotta come out from the cold and move from the wilderness of our separation mentality to meet up in the middle of the circle of life in order to survive now.

Surely it's obvious to all that as a collective we've gotten ourselves into this mess and it will take the collective to bring us out again. Quite lost on most of us, there are currents far beyond our 3D perceptions that move on eternity's timing or pace. Again, the Divine principle of paradox plays out in all of our lives here.

As an individuated expression of the Divine, each Soul in Human form is sent out into the cosmos to experience at will and at some point, perhaps when a time code fires inside, a switch is flipped and the pivot point reached, that Soul begins to seek the pathways to return Home. To do this now - and on a global level we are - we will all, especially the men in humanity - have to learn to rely on each other and just like when we were kids first learning how to stand up, to play together in the same sandbox.

... to be continued ...



Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Keep It Simple Becasue it Is


I just awoke from a dream where I was out in the deep surf with these enormous waves crashing overhead. I mean really huge swells as high as 40-50 ft. As I was swimming out beyond the break line, they passed and crashed on top of me, rushing to shore. Of course I knew to wait until the very last moment before ducking under the wave, remembering to take a big breath before going under.

As I rested in the relative quiet, deep in the rough and tumble of the undertow, there was a sweet stillness that filled my awareness. It was like I could actually breathe while under water. If I took little bite size breaths, I could stay down as long as I wanted. As long as I stayed focused on my breathing, I could remain submerged with no fear whatsoever. As I opened my eyes to this new day today, I took the utter simplicity of this dream into this blog ...

With the various energetic, astrological, cosmic - who knows what all else - portals taking place these daze. I am reminded of the message of my dream - keep it simple, stay focused in my breath and let all the other stuff recede from my attention now. Personally, I have a strong affinity to astrology and have followed it for many years, loosely tracking the various movements and motions of the planets as they pertained to me along the way. In times of significant change, I've always found it helpful to get an overview sense of what pathways would best be followed through the uncharted waters and cross currents ahead.

Whatever the New Moon Solar Eclipse (in Scorpio) means, it portends big potential shifts for us all. Scorpio is the sign of death/rebirth/transformation/transmutation/initiation/sexuality as well as other juicy aspects long associated with this sign. However you view this archetypal force, change is big time afoot. Just having had Storm Sandy blow through the NY area and along with the well publicized 2012 Gateway looming on the horizon, I can only wonder, what the f..k is next coming down the pike.

For us highly empathic types these times, especially in congested urban ares like NYC, are chocked full of all kinds of deeply unprocessed energies. I recently had a conversation with a fellow energy healer who mentioned having been drawn to this city to 'anchor energy and hold space' and I was hit by the enormity of this kind of personal commitment. Often I have felt this playing out in my life and it has just as often humbled me to recognize my person will and satisfaction are just not running the show anymore.

In times of overwhelm, uncertainty and insecurity, as with last night's dream for me the way out and through, is to find my breath, rest in my Heartspace and keep it as simple as often as I can. I have repeatedly found throughout my life, the Sacred lives in the quiet space between my thoughts, between the pulsing waves of my emotions and within each moment I am quiet enough to stop and listen inside.

I gotta believe we are all being prepped to get this lesson now. For me, this is my resting place in the storm, my safe haven and final refuge in these most unpredictable times.

... to be continued ...

Monday, November 12, 2012

Our Shadow Is Our Radiance Turned Inside Out


However you slice it, everyone is running from something inside of themselves. And if not running from, then being chased by. Whether it's a painful memory from our past, a wounding from childhood that has left an indelible imprint on our then all too vulnerable psyches - which of course unless consciously attended to, faced and eventually embraced, keeps playing out in all the hurtful and hurting ways that adversely affect our live and those we become intimate with. As they saying goes, we all got something to hide.

As I was told for years, if I didn't try so hard to cover up what was fairly obvious for others to clearly see and actually began to deal with my Shadow (though not called that at the time), I would not only be much happier, I would then create more satisfying and fulfilling relationships all the way around. What is hidden in the small print of the Awakening contract, is that going into the dungeons of our Shadow to finally identify, face and clear up all the cloaked junk hidden away, would be a painstaking and yes, often messy affair. That would probibly take years and for me, certainly has. 

It is a remarkable thing that compels a person to engage this quest to finally awaken to the Sacred they are. 

I mean, how many people actually make life-significant course changes that empower them to  make new proactive choices to then create a more fulfilling life experience? Not as a value judgement as much as pure observation and speaking from my personal experience, not so many and not nearly enough. Thus enters the Grace Factor. As Einstein once said: a mind can't solve the problems that that mind created. We can't get out of our sandbox by staying in the same box. Duh! If you keep doing what you did, you'll keep getting what you got.

For me, it was having a Spiritual awakening at an early age that no, didn't pave the way to effortless attainment, however, it did expand the ceiling of my consciousness to such a degree, that it put all else in my young life into crystal clear perspective. The downside of this was it devalued the significance the world placed on material attainment and the goals of personal satisfaction that most people seemed to be attracted to.

I believe the awakening process is a per-determined time-code, that is activated or set to go off a a certain point in a Soul's journey that in effect, is the pivot point for that wandering Soul to then begin searching for it's way back Home. All the neighborhoods that Soul spiraled into through and out of past, life time after life time, in order to return back to It's Source, has to be passed through in reverse. It is Grace that awakens us to the suffering we create for ourselves and from the Sufi tradition, it is Divine discontent that drives this innate impulse for us to finally return Home.

All the woundings we suffered going through the first pass on our living on Earth journeys, will have to be encountered on our way back out again. Because throughout recorded history, the nature of man's world has been less than kind to those living from a less than control, dominate, conquest and posses mentality, we have all experienced hardships and horrors that at the time, were simply impossible to reconcile let alone 'integrate in a healthy way.'  These painful experiences are the force and content that create our Shadow in the first place.

All the myriad hurtful moments we were told we were less than the magnificent Beings we in fact are, combined with all the experiences we were treated - and treated others - is dishonoring, hurtful and degrading ways built up the warehouse accumulation of experiences we simply had to stuff away in order to survive emotionally. In order to cope with the too much pain, we essentially filed it all away. And of course, it doesn't really ever go away, it just get stored along with the other memories too difficult to deal with at the time they occurred.

To turn and face the often enormous stock pile of emotional stagnant shit is the mythological and metaphorical Hero's Journey. This Sacred quest takes an even more than enormous commitment to transform, resolve and eventually 'heal.'

The Awakening Sacred Masculine At The Turning Of The Ages has on all necessary levels, chosen to do just this. In order to fully engage this enterprise, we all have to face the parts of ourselves that have prevented us from seeing ourselves as already Sacred. This is the huge value our Shadow affords us now. It is only through it that we can really Love our self back into Divinity.

... to be continued ... 








 

Friday, November 9, 2012

As Above So Below, As Within So Without


To finally become complete and whole in your human experience you will have to embrace the apparent opposites within you and your world to arrive safely Home. Ah, the every present Divine Principle Of paradox. As in - only when you embrace your darkest Shadow does your deepest Light reveal Itself in you. Tricky stuff, this Awakening business, isn't it?

Actually, it's just a wee bit bigger than out human minds, emotions and most of all egos can grasp. And that's the point. If it were so easy, our world would already the place we all long to live on and the affairs of this world would be fully imbued with the Presence of The Beloved consciously living through each of us. Hey, you gotta have a Dream.

This thing about being a Spirit having a Human experience, not a Human having a Spiritual one is that the Essence of all of us is in every way Divine and yet, to live here with any semblance of mastery (defined by a more often than not, living current of Love and joy running through us day in day out), the two opposite elements of our 'reality' have to be seamlessly blended and merged together. As in Being One.

Sounds good on paper and obviously, easier said than done. And from my sense of It All, the reason why I am here in the first place, is to embody my Diving Essence, here and now in my Human body. For me, the whole magic of living in Sacred Union is the paradise world within that is created when I face and embrace the parts of me I've always tried to hide from the light of my conscious awareness. This is my Shadow and within it lie the wellsprings of my hidden personal power ... Ironic, yes? These are the parts of my self I've always held against myself and just knew that if anyone ever saw them, I would be shunned forever ...

These are the parts of me I've especially wished and tried to hide from God, knowing It wouldn't possibly Love me if It knew about all this funky shit in me. From this place of my chronic woundedness, my all too big sweaty and stinky pain body and huge lack of self-worth - it are these very dark spaces in me that in my inability to, up until now, embrace all of me in my own unconditional Love, that I've long held distance between me 'Keith' and the God I Am.

It was in believing the mythical and archetypal lie that 'Original Sin' was in any way shape or form true that caused me to believe I had to in turn, punish myself to earn God's Love once again. For me, it's been a long standing Soul debt with a very stiff price to keep paying, life time over an over again (talk about endless karmic balloon pavements) that is the gauntlet I have placed down on the battlefield within myself that has allowed Keith to leave the war zones in my life.
 
And this is exactly what each and everyone of has to eventually face, embrace and bring back into our empowered Heartspaces to finally return Home within our Self. This indeed is the precious price of admission to The Show ...

... to be continued ...


Thursday, November 8, 2012

The Vertical Power Current Works Both Ways


Just as the flow of Lifeforce flows from the higher realms down into us, again, as if sitting or standing under a rushing waterfall of living Light, so does it flow up from the Earth below. As above, so below

So many Spiritually adept people easily connect to the higher levels of their consciousness, like it's immediate or second nature (actually, it's our first) though are fairly ungrounded and disconnected from the Earth and their bodies upon her

I remember when I first went to Sedona in 1992, when the New Age was all the rage and I visited a place called The Center For The New Age (I later briefly worked there) and the channels (all women) in attendance were fairly to largely overweight. I mean, really big and it stuck me how odd that this was so. I hadn't connected the dots yet, not understanding the whole concept of balanced integration between Heaven and Earth, matter and Spirit - the dance of complimentary forces. You know the whole Yin-Yang thing.

After spending some time in the channeling vibe (yes, having once been a 'channel junkie') I saw how the information I heard from them was all the lofty, high flying, out into the cosmos stuff - Angels, Ascended Masters and Universal Light, etc. I wondered how the humanity of us was to make these connections if there was so little info about how to bring this current alive and present into our bodies and once there, what to do with it once It was.

As always the case in my development in this life, the next teaching of awareness or road I walked was the Red Road. I began going to native American sweats lodges, getting real deep into that culture's approach to the worlds of Spirit, both unseen and already inhabiting the living creatures on the Earth. Talk about getting grounded - sit in a lodge for a couple of hours, sweating the sin outta you with a bunch of people, going through the 4 rounds together - wow! 

Like many of us non-natives that went through and explored this particular tradition, it brought up many memories of a much simpler life and times, way before the European conquest effectively destroyed these native and indigenous cultures. It totally fit at the time although I felt uncomfortable with the idea of taking on this culture's way of looking at life and incorporating many of its principals, moved on to other areas of Spiritual study.

What I experienced in these lodges reawakened the inner knowingness of how essential it is to be present in my body, grounded and connected to the Earth's pulse and rhythms. This phase of my development enlightened me to the fact that I wasn't here on Earth just to leave my body, rather to bring Almighty Spirit into it as I went about my life here. 

Having been introduced to Eastern mysticism before my teens and the whole emphasis of transcending the ego, the body and its primal instincts being such a core teaching in many of those traditions, as I grew older, I began to see other sides of the puzzle. In time, the entire myth of leaving these Earthly realms to escape to higher planes of existence no longer appealed to me quite as much.

In retrospect, the people who brought through such amazing information of the Heavenly realities, way beyond the Earth's domain, turned out to be terribly uncomfortable in their bodies and extremely unhealthy as well. They were suffering in their Earth experience and although they could access the higher currents, they hadn't successfully brought these into harmonic balance with their Earth suits. From my experience, not a one had such a healthy relationship with their bodies and I came to understand, that's what they chose to go out of them in the first place.

I appreciated what I learned then, however, knew there was a very different approach that was more in keeping with my sensibilities and personal preferences. Personalty speaking, I've always Loved having a body, this body, my body. It has always served me well and been a huge gift to creating my sense of wellness, happiness and joy. Why would I deny it by not taking care of it and attending to its needs as best I possibly can? 

Unlike those obese and overweight channels, I have come to know my way is the way of embodiment, of calling into it the Presence of The Sacred Masculine and Feminine alike. My way is the way of Sacred Union.

... to be continued ...

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

The Vertical Power Current

The Vertical Power Current - it's like sitting, standing and living in a flowing column of living Lightforce. This is your Soul Stream that always connects you to your Source, to the Beloved, to God. As I continue calling the Sacred into my life, I have learned to bathe my Being in this eternally renewable waterfall and shower of Lifeforce. This feeds me on all levels and fills me with the Sacred of my Self, breath in breath out.

It is here I feel the embrace of Spirit holding and embracing me as I go about my days here on Earth, currently rockin' and rollin' in NYC. It is only within my Soul Stream that I always feel the visceral, gut-level knowingness that I am an extension and expression of the Divine in my world. It is in this conscious awareness I continue awakening the Sacred Masculine throughout my self.

This is called living in your Verticality or Vertical Power Current.

Coming back to the point of your Sacred reference, just how do you connect to the Sacred in your life? How exactly do you align with the reality of your Being? There are so many time-tested ways to do this, all having their value and usefulness. One of the primary things I encourage those I work with is to find your own way to connect to the Sacred, in your self, in your body and your lives.

During meditation and invocations, I Love the lofty high powered visualizations, calling in the plenitudes of Ascended Beings, Angels and such, however, I need to feel it activate in my body to know It's really real. I have to feel it alive in me as me.  

To Awaken The Sacred in you, you will eventually have to embody It - again, breath in breath out.


Make your connection personal if not instinctual and to be sure, make it readily available because this is the way you'll have to call It in when things go crazy in you and around you during these times - The Turning Of The Ages.

Unless a man has his internal guidance system always up and running, open and available to hold and guide him, he will habitually resort to the way so many people attempt to navigate through their lives, from the sign post markers out in the world. And this is clearly very risky in not unhealthy business, through and through.

From an energy anatomy standpoint, along with the 7 major Chakras contained within your body, ethericlly speaking, this stacked column of energy centers extend way above your head and below your feet as well. The 8th Chakra, 18 inches directly above your head is also called your Soul Star and is the access point into your Etheric or Ka body. (More on this in later updates ...)

The Chakra below your feet, always 18 inches below the point on the Earth you presently are, regardless of how high off the surface you happen to be, is called your Earth Star. Essentially, these points are the North-South axis connection points that hold you as a Spirit in human form. Another way to reference them is as negative and positive terminal ends of a battery. Both are essential conductor points that create the current of Lifeforce flowing through you, keeping you alive on Earth.

When you learn to access and engage these opposite yet complimentary aspects of your energy body, the sense of living in your Verticality or Vertical Power Current is consciously activated. For me, this awareness empowers my 'living in the world but not of it' more and more. I don't know about you but from my vantage point, at least here in NYC, this feels like a very good thing these days.

I've spent so much of my life looking outside myself for the answers I needed in all the times I felt lost and confused. Having been raised with a very shaky belief in myself and my own internal sense of self guidance from the git-go, I, like all the rest of us, was essentially trained by the nature of the temporal world to seek my truth from external sources. Needless to say, I rarely to never really got the feeling I was getting a clean read in the bargain.

Not unlike, for instance, the sense more and more of us (thank God) are getting from the political circus taking place in America - do you really believe what you are being told and what is being said to be the truth? I hope not! Having grown up in the 1960's with all the insanity, assignations and various break ins and break downs in our country's moral fiber, those times in retrospect, were the perfect primer for what is taking place today.

Whether apathy, resignation or simply waking up to the reality that what I am told to believe has so very little to nothing to do with is in fact really going on. In this respect, I'm totally a product of the times. Within the constant infomercial spin and swirl taking place now, even more than ever (at least in my lifetime - and that's saying a lot), I've learned to disengage from the outer world as much as possible and go inside to come to peace.

From time immemorial, the ancients professed the way to enlightenment was to pull away from the nonsense taking place out in the world, all expressions of man's doing and misdoings. It is only within you will find your own reference point guiding you Home in your Self. Now more than ever, this applies - wouldn't you say? From my vantage point, it's essential to keep my Soul Stream alignment solid, fluid, smooth and strong to help steer me through the times to come.

... to be continued ...


Tuesday, November 6, 2012

The Changing Times We Live In. Big Time

Changing times we live in. Big time.
In the aftermath of Storm Sandy here in NYC, with not just the physically destructive impact felt in the neighborhoods hit the hardest, the feeling of vulnerability and uncertainty has been a subtle yet palpable undercurrent waving through the vibe-ways.

Does anyone on the planet really have a clue as to what is going on these days? With so much happening on every level of our lives, now with the presidential elections taking place today and all this signifies for us in America along with the rest of the world, it's no wonder those of us who actually tune into the deeper currents feel a bit unsettled. At least I do. It's the empath's curse. Like those animals who get the pre-shakes days before the earthquake erupts, somehow sensing the tremors emanating from deep within the Earth, I've always unconsciously tapped into an information stream foretelling things to come.

To be sure, growing up with this ability was nothing short of crazy-making. As the youngest child living in a murky gene pool of my family life, with so many cross currents swirling about that no one either identified or owned up to, I was often left questioning if I was somehow responsible for all the energetic confusion in my home. I expect all too many of us in our youths felt this uncertainty.

This played right into the part of me that innately felt somehow wrong and at fault, most often assuming I was to blame for the lack of Love or joy in my family. I automatically took it upon myself to play the scape goat for the rest of us. I certainly didn't have the know-how to  positively re-frame my experiences growing up and reference myself from a clearer perspective.

So in that respect, hardly anyone I've know, specifically men, were taught early in life to go inside to get connected in their own pure Spiritual information stream, let alone get centered, aligning within their Sacred Self. Of all the things I was taught and quickly forget growing up with all those boring school hours spent in class with other kids, no one had the sense to teach me about this.

As always, it was through Grace and fate that I discovered how to meditate and begin unwinding the sizable amount of nonsense within my self. Of course, it's taken years to transform and clear out the warehouses of emotional baggage and unwind the erroneous and self destructive belief systems to even begin to see the light of this clear day, here and now.

As a result and nothing short of out of dire necessity, I've learned my Heartspace is always my go-to place to get still and quiet when the outer storms are raging and more importantly, when fear, insecurity and uncertainty threatens to capsize my personal harmony. To say it's all in the breath would be way too simple and yet, completely true. The eternal in breath out breath, like the waves of the oceans or the motion that light and sound travel upon, is the most basic of energetic signatures in our Universe.

For most of my life, I never really knew how to breathe, not in the ways the mystics or Spiritual adept do. Even though I learned how to practice meditation at an early age, like all things of deeper value, it's taken years to discover the essential elements and power of this ageless and profoundly simple tool of self awareness and Self discovery. Learning to rest in my breath has certainly saved my life, over and over again. 

Because I digested so much anger growing up, internalizing it to be sure, never learning how to properly release and transform it, I've (up until now) always been reactive when confronted with the uncomfortable feelings that have in turn, been a product of being too reactive. To compensate and insulate, I turned to smoking grass the same year I learned to meditate as a way of protecting my self from the confusion and dissonance around me.

Like all sensitive types who weren't trained early in life to deal with the chaos of Earth life, drugs and substance are the readily available ways used to cope or try to handle the emotional trauma dramas of living in this world. So many people never even approached let alone, manifested their true potential because of these addictive patterns. The easy way out usually ends up keeping us here longer.

Learning how to properly deal with fear, difficulty and self doubt are said to be the prime lessons of Earth School and the rigorous curriculum, subject matter we are all here to master.

As so I am, with each breath at a time.

...to be continued ...