Boy,
does this question ring a few bells and set off our alarms! It’s such a loaded
subject – anything dealing with our sexuality, that is. From as long as
recorded history began, humans have been trying to figure out this powerful Lifeforce
enigma. And of course, bringing organized religion into the mix has only added
confusion, as well as severe punishment to all offenders – which I have to
believe, in one lifetime or many, we’ve all been guilty as charged. Ah, the
wages and ultimate price of committing this heavenly sin. Having years ago come
through the Sedona School of Temple Arts (under the murky hand of Baba Dez), thankfully
training with the wondrous David Cates, I’ve had my exposure and explorations
into this specific, healing path.
While
living, working and assisting with a couple of the Temple’s Sexual Healer Conferences,
I was exposed to their particular version of Sexual Healing, such as it was.
Having moved to Sedona in 1996 to attend the School of Energy Mastery, my
healership training was based on and rooted in very different principles than
those espoused at Baba D’s place of worship. There were definitely those with
his group who ran much cleaner consciousness, though to be honest, I hardly ever
heard the Divine called in or mentioned in ceremony, however it played out. And
this for me is a really big giveaway. Please know, in the Heart of it, I hold no
judgment against Baba or anyone else – we all gotta figure out our own playing
fields in life – who we play best with, what we value as we do and ultimately,
how we live and play with our selves.
I
strongly believe each and all paths chosen, eventually lead us Home. However,
some are much more circuitous, if not downright convoluted - meandering through
some pretty funky neighborhoods in our return route to becoming The Beloved,
once again. Who’s to say what’s best for another when it comes to their growth?
How can anyone really say what’s most appropriate for our Spiritual advancement
anyway? It is an individual decision, each step of the way, one we alone are beholden
to and responsible for.
Speaking
of learning paths, isn’t Coyote medicine an essential and valuable learning curve
to master in our personal development? Isn’t ‘the trickster’ a necessary piece
to get along the way? Getting fooled too
much will teach you how not to any longer. How can you learn what your
limits are unless you go past them, usually over and over again? I know this
had been an all too constant Life School course I’d signed up for … and in this
respect, I often wonder how any of us made it safely through our lives, to get
this far? For me, it’s been proof positive that I absolutely do have Guardian
Angels looking over me. Goodness knows, I wouldn’t have made it through the
gauntlet of my karmic backlash, if I hadn’t. I’ve needed the seen and unseen Spiritual
troup support watching my back, each and every frickin’ day.
Ever
since I began meditating and had a Soul merge at 13, my Spiritual knowingness
told me the Sacred is not only Home Itself, it’s the way to get there. I’ve
found in this, the Sacred, there are certain qualities inherent or inbred into
this eternal reality. Love is a big one. So is respect, honor, compassion and
integrity – all essential attributes of
the Awakened Sacred Masculine consciousness – as of course, is so with the
Sacred Feminine as well. Included is gratitude, forgiveness, trust and joy. In
the essence of It, we’re really all the same, just wearing different Earth
suits this go-round with different themes playing out, through and for each of us.
The
whole notion of doing ‘healing work’ is predicated on the fundamental truth
that the one holding healing space for another has already learned the
material, healed first-hand in their own lives. How can you help walk another
through their jungle forest unless you’ve already made it safely through your
own? Hello? I means seriously! This a
blindingly so when it comes to Shadow energy. You better have met, embraced and
Blessed yours face-to-face before you ask me to take a first peek at mine. Back
in my Sedona days, I saw so much misuse of will in this respect and don’t you know,
it triggered a place in me that remembered when in past lives, I too ran this
energy over others, big time. Ouch!
But
hey, that’s how we learn in Earth School – often the hard way or rather, by
doing things we never want to do again. While in NYC, my encounters with the
sexual healers here have largely left me unimpressed if not, abjectly turned
off. I have not been moved or ignited or touched by anyone’s clear, aligned or
awakened consciousness. Trust me on this, I have absolutely no interest in helping
another learn this craft while playing as their practice, guinea pig – where they
learn to master their slippery sexual energies at my expense. No thank you! This
may sound too hard line or judgmental but there you have it. In this way
especially and all other ways too, discernment counts.
To
draw a parallel with Tantra for instance, it’s said Tantra is the fastest path
to God realization – and the most
dangerous. How can you not get enamored,
seduced and bamboozled with the Mojo Juice? It just feels too good to
unhand the faucet and let go of the power flowing through it. This is where the Sacred comes in. The real power is in getting out of
the way, don’t you know. The ability to successfully do this kind of
healing work is in being able to become transparent, consciously coming into a deeply
empowered humility, where the I Am is doing all the work, through me, not from
me. And for me anyway, this has taken a great deal of training and Heartbreak to
learn, I must say.
Why
is this? It’s because only by having had my Heart broken, have I really learned
how to love. Only having lost love have I begun to realize how precious it
really is. This Life School truth is especially true working with sexual Lifeforce
energy – only having had it run away with me have I learned to treat it with extreme
respect. In this, it’s like driving a really powerful car. One little slip ends
you wrecked in a ditch. From my experience, the most competent and proficient practitioners
(in any modality) were the ones who never made it about themselves, ever. Not
one little bit. Their gift was they could connect with Divine grace and then
get out of the way. In this, they'd done their Spiritual, self-healing work way before we'd met. They were simply the clear flow lines through which the Sacred current streamed
into my session.
Sexual healing demands
the highest level of personal integrity, plain and simple. As a massage therapist
just starting out in the 1980’s, there was a much looser standard than there is
now. The massage room was more a more permissive and allowing domain. Over the years of my Spa career, I knew a number of guys who lost their professional
license for having taken a one inch detour into Sacred territory, towards
Yoniville. To have a strange, beautiful women lay naked under a scant towel is
a lot to handle if you’re still running seducer energy or don’t know your place
or priorities. It’s easy to get hot and bothered and make a mistake, especially
if you don’t have your heads on straight.
I’ve
been asked so many times why I call my work Heart Tantra, why I choose to associate with a term that’s become so
ripe with mixed message connotations, if not a bit sleazy, sexually. How can ‘the
Heart’ ride side-by-side with an exotic/erotic term that means wild way out sex
with anyone you like or happen to be naked with? (Remember God has a beguiling sense of humor.) Seems so contradictory!
And so it really is – complimentary, actually. Sexual Lifeforce has been so maligned having passed through humanity's fear-based belief systems.
Sex just got a really bad rap,
that’s all. Anything that powerful has
to have lots of God in it, not to mention feels so deliciously good. That
simple reality has always threatened just about anyone who wants to control who,
what, where and why God can be worshiped. I mean, if everyone knew they their Sacred
in the juice of their loins and were consciously able to connect into their
Soul Stream, grounded into the Earth, who knows how much fun humanity could
have …
Thank You &
Love To Us All ~
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