One of the misnomers or misconceptions previously afoot is
that The New Earth would be waiting of us, all resplendent in Its radiant glory
sometime soon after the heralded December 21st Mayan deadline due
date. Oops, not quite … Was everyone wrong? – what did we think would occur –
and now that the bloom, glint and glimmer is off that rose, what will happen now? I’ve often
wondered what the dooms day naysayers feel the day after the end of their world
didn’t and how they then picked up the pieces to their faith and trust, once
again.
As I’ve come to put more and more of my marbles on the table
of this very Present Moment, fully believing that Spirit’s got my back, I still
have to come up with the $$$ to pay my bills and cover my rent. Regardless of
the 5th dimension coming more into view, the 3rd D sure
keeps getting in the way of enjoying the scenery.
Making it here in NYC
is a 24/7 deal, one that requires the very best of me. I know if nothing
else, I’ve made it this far in my life, making it through significant and
noteworthy challenges … and yet, this new terrain demands I dig even deeper to
mine the fuel to keep propelling me along. This isn’t the early ‘80s when I
came here fresher and a far cry less wise. None of us can rest on past
achievements and old street cred. It seems we all have to reestablish our self value,
worth and Spiritual credentials anew. If only for ourselves, we must keep doing
whatever it takes to keep our boats afloat. And in this town, paddling along
comes to feel like a full time job.
Case in point: the living situation I’ve been in since last October
is quickly coming to an appropriate end. Without going into detail (to honor
all participants involved), the time is ripe to move on. Yes I know, when one
door close, another opens. However, when the first door is swinging on its
hinges, it’s not always so clear what awaits on the other side. As always don’t you know, it’s a grand leap
of Faith. This is one sure way Spirit
knows it has our full attention. When your number gets called, as it always
eventually does, it tends to always catch you by surprise. In this instance, the
comfy zone bubble is momentarily popped, leaving me thumped though at this
point, not too fazed.
One of the benefits of having consistently made the arduous
treks up the steep karmic mountainsides, I know I’ve been battle tested plenty
enough … and one of the downsides is, I know the effort it takes to make it up
to a yet another new vantage point in my life. Not having just fallen off the
turnip truck, I have a fairly good idea when this entails, as in … I was told
in a reading 6 yrs ago that I would be a Sadhu of sorts for the following 7
yrs, not having a steady home of my own, always living in other’s, just passing
through. This extended time has certainly taught me to keep going inside to get
my bearings, pay attention to how I feel in what’s going on around me, act
accordingly and simply show up as best I can to meet and honor the present
moment at hand. Simple, really.
I now choose to be
the Beloved to the moment – to serve, support, celebrate and inspire life
around me as best I possibly can. As it turns out, in order to pull myself
out of a couple of to-death-do-I-go really Dark Night of The Soul passages,
lasting nearly 2 yrs each, ten years apart, having among other things, thankfully come up with a personal mission
statement or code of honor I could live by.
As a man to be a man, I had to find my internal compass pointing in a direction
all of me, my Soul first, wanted to go. Although there are areas of my life
I am calling in big time abundance, most of all, I call in being happy with
whatever is.
Gratitude is the
attitude. All the Spiritual training of all times means bupkis, if you
don’t Love yourself deeply and express your Heartfelt gratitude to others, at
least in my eyes.
I know of so many people feeling lost and confused these
days, not to mention friends of friends and family of friends dying away now.
As predicted, this year will see an accelerated exit plan taken by many Souls
who’ve just had enough here. They either want to take a time out from Earth
School or go to another district to try other curriculum.
The Karma Lotto System spins apparently at random, with some
getting way more than their share of tough breaks and hard knocks. I for one,
in the larger scheme of things, have had it pretty darn easy. No childhood illnesses
long lingering in my life, no terminal diseases picked up from a public toilet
seat or crazed drivers taking me out while I ride crosstown in traffic. I Am
Blessed, through and through let me say.
Years ago, I had a wonderful girlfriend, Deborah Mills, a
most accomplished healer and facilitator, who once remarked towards the end of
our time together about how far I’d come since knowing her. Her observation was
followed by a tongue in cheek remark – ‘good thing, because you really needed
to!’ And that was back in the mid-90’s. Since then I’ve had my ass handed to me
enough various ways over this time, by life and the Universe at large. I’m sure
I’ve paid my full dues to earn the right to be Here, Now. Like the eternal web
and flow of the tidal motions of the Awakening process, we periodically get good
behavior, quiet time off reprieves.
These respites always come to our immense relief, however,
like erratic clockwork, are always followed by the thump thump thump of gotta
get back to moving through something someone someplace or some situation else that’s
forcing you to keep evolving. These, often showing up as unwanted and
unannounced visitors you know you have to attend to but for the life of you, just
wished would go away.
Hey, I too have longed for the Holiday cabana by the beach
with extended lounge service life plan. Just keep bringing the cold drinks with
the funny umbrellas on top, the big frosty ones that make me forget I’m on
Earth primarily to express and manifest. Being whacked out at high tide does not
much motivation make. Fittingly enough, I have had these times. I‘ve lived on beautiful
Ibiza, an island off the Mediterranean coast of Spain for 4 glorious years,
just knowing I’d found my eternal resting place. But alas, got lazy and a bit
complacent, did I.
Most tropical environs have a tendency of doing this. Ever
hang out in old Key West for extended periods of time and get much done? Not
very likely, unless it’s specializing in the Duval St bar crawl and Sunday
afternoon tea dances, the perfect way to round out a long extended and in those
daze, party expensive weekend. (But really, such fun ...)
Eventually, it’s time to get back in the race, hopefully not
being chased along in a hurry, rather running smoothly towards your goal. To Awaken to the Divine within you and the
Sacred as you. The Awakened Sacred Masculine views their life out side of time,
a part of a bigger current and context not so often spoken of at large. It has
always been this way – this Earth School place is an equal opportunity zone for
a great many different human species (and others, I’m sure), all to co-exist
somewhat well together though historically, not so well for very long.
There isn’t anyone I
know who isn’t facing a Crossroads of Life Moment these days. Not all major
heavy duty whammos but enough are. Maybe
this is the 2013 Effect in action. We
all have to go past who and where we’ve been to be what we are becoming. No,
there are no readable roadmaps or useable blueprints showing us the way. For us men, this is perhaps even more the
case than our longer awakening sisters. We have yet to anchor in the
Brotherhood into our collective masculine consciousness, creating the support
system awareness where we intuitively choose to attend appropriately to each
other, as need arises.
As an aside and a rule, the contacts I’ve made with men here
tend to fall off short, where they more often than not, do not return or follow
up on calls. I still can’t figure it out. Do I smell funny? Do I come on too
strong, pushing buttons - does leading with my Heart, wanting to connect on deeper
levels than casual conversations, trigger resistance? Apparently so. Are most men, even ‘conscious’ ones comfortably capable
of going there? Having had many awakening women friends over the years, I
quickly became envious of your close knit bonds forming at first meeting which always
transcended, age, culture, religion or whatever identity markers obvious at
hand. Yo! Not us guys.
Perhaps like the eternal pissing to stake out our territory
mentality, as a newer arrivee here, I’ve often wondered if these fellows felt
threatened by yet another man coming in to take their claim of the resource pie.
In this instance, the available clients who request our various healing
services. Who knows what drives us in these ways if not fear. Simply, I‘ve been
looking for human connection, a new reference point in my own sense of myself of
what Brotherhood can look like now.
Who knows no one does.
I’ve become resigned to this, almost giving up that this will change. Although,
I’ve never ever wanted to actually be a woman, dress up or the like, I sure do
admire the way you ladies can move past your boundary limitations to connect in
with each other from a sincere Heartspace place. It really is impressive.
As the blade cuts the line between what does and does not
support our lives and growth now, it’s sometimes tricky business knowing what
actually is serving our highest and greatest good and what’s just a carryover
from a comforting addiction still in the mix. Again, who knows … but hey baby, we’re all Here right Now,
finding out.
… to be continued …
In the midst of whatever is unfolding upon the planet now, we all need (when we do) an ally on the trail to help us place our feet, just so ... the work I do, Heart Tantra, will assist you in removing the doubts, fears and unwanted resistance in your emotional and mental bodies, allowing you move with more confidant, peace and ease.
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Hi! I'm a woman but my sacred masculine is alive and strong. He wants to give you a high-five. :)
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