New Moons Old Patterns

As this New Moon opens the doorways to the incoming energies of March, cresting along through the Spring Equinox, the portals are opening up for quite a ride this month. I for one, can certainly relate. My flat mate has been called away to visit a family member who recently got banged up in car accident in the S of France. So off goes Lydia for 1 month or more, to hold space, keep house and help her sister mend. 

  

By her enormous grace, generosity and care, my dear friend Lydia has allowed me to share her 1 bedroom/mostly studio, NY apartment for 5 months now. She has been remarkable, really. All the while, following her guidance and intuition, she has made steady efforts to assist me getting my footing here in NYC. Along with being a trusted friend and confidant, willing collaborator and generous benefactor, she has been and remains a true Angel in my life. Thank you Lydia - your friendship has been a Blessed beacon on my horizon, illuminating my way and I intend my payback to last at least, this lifetime.

This whole living situation scenario reminds me that yes, we have to do it for ourselves and no, we can’t do it alone. The Primal Principal of Paradox strikes again. As with all of us these days, the telling moments and significant relationships in our lives, like always, point us to see most immediately and intimately who we’re showing up as and what we’re learning in our current Earth School, class curriculum. In this respect, you never have far to look…

I certainly see in myself, those I work with and other friends, the primary topic of ‘Evolution Training’ is how we’re all re-referencing our past sense of self or personality identities within the new light of Now. Again, the subtle shifts of 2013 are sublimely being felt and however handled, dealt with as smoothly as we can possibly muster.

And yet, these galactic forces encourage, nay force us to continue clearing the deep wounds, imprints and carry overs from our childhood, pre-verbal conditionings.  Oh fun.  More often than not, all dungeon trench material, this. Even the most evolved of us are having to occasionally do this go-back work, all in efforts to consciously move forward now.

For those that just knew we’d already met and faced all these uncomfortable parts of ourselves, in fact many times over and successfully taken the plunge into and through the hidden recesses of our Shadow ponds - all to thankfully come out the other side, dripping clean - we’re now having to reenlist in the cause of self-mastery for yet another tour, in-personality. Whoever we believed, saying once would do the trick, was sadly mistaken. And this has shown me, the Divine doesn’t flow so strong through the pinch of my humanness.

The stronger the in-pulse of conscious awareness, the deeper we have to go to balance out the other side of the equation - which is to clean deep what has been illumined higher up. Does it ever end I wonder, this continual if not perpetual periodic purging and healing of our Core Wounds? It seems not. Again, as the incoming energies of this year continue picking up steam with a strong influx of Juice around the Vernal Equinox in ten days’ time, expect more opportunities to see the unpreferred in you and your world.

The higher the vibration of Light, the finer the frequency of illusion. It get’s real tricky here. This was illustrated by a number of Indian Spiritual masters back in the 1970’s and ‘80s. These wizened men, who had achieved significant powers and abilities in the realms of the esoteric, had never experienced Western women in such earnest availability surrounding them, worshipping devotedly at their feet. One thing led to another and before long, hanky panky was flowing under holy robes and behind closed curtains. We all have to learn how to be conscious, especially in the areas we’re not.

 

This domestic space I now blissfully inhabit, all quiet, private and alone, marks the very first time in nearly 6 mos I’ve been totally by with and all to myself for more than 24 hrs straight. Seriously. For one who has always insisted on having a separate dwelling to close the door and retreat back into - a necessity for this empathic type, allowing time and stillness to recharge, regenerate and realign with my Soul Stream current - this has been yet another time to stretch, stretch and stretch some more.

To her immense credit, my friend Lydia is nothing if not consistently accommodating and yet, to not have a private home environment to go back into to get still and set apart from the outside world, especially here in NYC, has been the necessary push to get me looking deeper at my own self sufficiency issues. Since leaving home, hitch hiking out west in 1976, facing the road on my own, I’ve been seeking to Awaken by becoming more conscious, evolved and whole as a man.

This however, has ongoingly intermingled with the steady peeling of my Shadow self, an all too sizeable element of Keith that surly transcends this lifetime alone. In fact, it’s taken a nearly exhausting series of epic passages to reveal the shine of my Soul underneath the very rough edges overlaid. This has been the plot content of my life’s road show and the material cleared on my path to embody the Sacred in my life.

As with most everyone I know, this is a full time, all life affair – perhaps there is no end to this journey, no completion to this task. It just goes on forever … our Soul’s quest to Awaken. I’m seeing how I have always retreated to not only heal up in times of stress and strain but also climb away from situations that pushed me into these all too uncomfortable places. Much to my chagrin, I have long hid behind my fears, my doubts and my addictions, hoping by burying my consciousness in the sand, hoping I mightn't have to deal with all the above running my life. Let it be said, it hasn’t much worked.

I used to run away from facing the challenges that arose in relationship, telling myself ‘it’s all her fault’ and thereby never really progressing beyond the patterns in me which always pushed Love away. Whether the playing field has become more precise and exact these days, with not nearly the slippage once on surface, the footing now has tightened considerably. Among everywhere else, I see this consistently in my dance with my girlfriend Mel (she’s back being named).

Aside from her being a true powerhouse of a female, long invested in her own awakening and an advocate for this with all others in her life, the force generated in our Loving together has raised the bar exponentially in both our lives. The tantra watts have increased, just like I asked they would and with more energy generated, the Lifeforce current has also grown. 

And yet on some of the outer, more material levels, this hasn't manifested so apparent to date. She and I both choose to be busier with our work, though it seems are busy enough getting to know each other.

Personally, I can’t afford a casual, non-committal approach anymore to either Mel or especially, myself. I have to attend to how I consciously (or unconsciously) show up, now more than ever. I keep getting the sense upon the planet that the water level is steadily rising with the wind picking up as well – the pace is quickening and the velocity increasing on board our individual and collective vessels. Something is happening now that we’re all too close to see …

Don’t you sense this happening? I sincerely believe this is all a huge once in a Soul time Blessing, this quickening currently underway in our Youniverse now. I too have read the channels expounding the unbelievable virtues of The Turning of The Ages, expressing now, here in 2013. I often wonder, mid stroke, how this will play out in my life and realize looking around, we’re all taking cosmic consciousness induced Soul steps to fulfill our personal and collective destinies – though far from it, our lives sometimes seem ...

Ultimately, we all have to go inside to get our own operating instructions and directions now. For me with this new home space to chill into, I intend to sink into a deeper connection with my Higher Self’s insight, wisdom and guidance. Goodness knows, I’ve had to listen real closely to hear the whispers and murmurs of my Self amidst the close proximity these past many months.

… to be continued …