To Honor The Divine In Us ~

Today marks the 2^nd meetup group I’m organizing and presenting here in NYC … and as I prepare for this evening’s group, I’m going through my own internal alignment process to get clear with what this Awakening The Sacred Masculine business is actually about.

 

In passing, I happened to attend another fellow’s meetup group on Masculine Archetypes the other day. My intention wasn’t to get new or more information on this subject, rather simply to support him in his own process of stepping out with his work. Having already had a full-on, busy day with clients before his evening program and although I’d RSVP’d saying I would attend, I thought of cancelling or just not showing up. And yet for me, I realize awakening my Sacred Masculine is about showing up as best I possibly can, for the greater good of all concerned. It’s simply being in integrity in my thoughts, feelings and actions.

This is not a statement of noteworthy humility, selflessly abdicating my own self-interests by choosing to overlook my immediate needs. However, it is about serving this awakening process however, whenever, wherever and with whomever I possibly can. As a man on this quest, I‘ve come to realize it’s always about saying what I do and doing what I say. It’s come down to just this: honoring my word and honoring my agreements, in this case, by showing up as I said I would.
 

As I’ve often observed in life, so many people appear to be lacking in these core essential qualities and for men in general, this is all too painfully obvious. The chaos, danger and uncertainty in the world today is an immediate expression of this overall lack of respect, honor and integrity, This shows up in how we treat each other and our planet as well. I know this may sound overly judgmental and perhaps it is, though for me, my desire to awaken my Sacred Masculine is a direct reflection of having so lacked these qualities in myself.
 

As I feel into what this awakening process is all about and having recently sat with other men discussing this, I’ve asked my internal guidance how to proceed. Knowing I’ve long acquiesced to what I thought others wanted from me – all in hopes of being more approved of, validated and loved by them – I’m coming to understand as well as embody what the essential message of Awakening The Sacred Masculine actually is.

I’m wondering how my version of this message will go over tonight, knowing this NYC market, to say the very least, is an extremely discerning one. Quite frankly and judgment aside, I see scant evidence readily on display that people give a poop about going deep to mine the jewels of their life’s purpose, let along Awakening their Sacred anything.

And yet, as anyone with a creatively expressive Soul will tell you, unless you speaking passionately from your Heart, owning your truth and above all, doing your best to express it honestly and sincerely, you’re just (as we guys are wont to say) pissing into the wind. In fact, you’re not even pissing at all. You’re just jacking off dry without a happy ending to make it all worthwhile and I ask you, where’s the joy in that?

With my pedigree training in life, having been mentored, groomed and guided by some of the very best, I have a personal obligation to stand naked in what I know to be so. And to speak it, passionately, with each breath. What comes through is this: it’s about honoring my honor and living from my Heart, aligned, centered and present, each and every day. As love is an action word, short for loving, it’s about doing my very best to connect to others in this way as well. For me, living from here in NYC becomes or rather reflects, my Soul mission in life. This being, to be a living force of love. In this respect, it’s about embodying my Sacred in my daily life, as best I possibly can.

Plain and simple, it’s just about being in my integrity and living my conscious connection to my Sacred in all my exchanges throughout my day. For me, this isn’t a showy, ostentation display of how good, pure or holy I am - ha, as if! Intending to live this way in no way makes me more special, valued or worthy than anyone else. It just makes me more purposefully aligned as a man on my own path to awaken my Sacred

 

I haven’t a clue who or how many will show up tonight and to be honest, I’m not too concerned. My only goal is to be prepared, present and available, no matter what. Everything else is out of my hands. In this respect, my personal take on awakening the Sacred anything is simply Being What I Is - supporting, serving, celebrating and inspiring others as best I can - and having as much fun as possible ... I’ll let you know.

Thank You & Love To Us All ~

PS I invite you to share these posts with anyone you feel would benefit and if you feel inspired, to write your feedback insights through the ‘Comment’ key on this blog. Also, please check out my work, Heart Tantra - The Attunement Session - on my web site heartantra.com. I offer in-person sessions here in the NYC area and absentee or long-distance work if you don't. Always Blessings On Your Way!

Sideswiped To A Straightaway ~

I’m back! 

As a recap: Late last summer as I was fervently writing away, moving through the 3^nd chapter of my book, Awakening The Sacred Masculine At The Turning Of the Ages, low, behold and faux pas, I had an unexpected techno event. My laptop’s hard drive crashed kaput, wiping out all my previous material. I mean, the whole shebang (Prologue, Introduction, 1^st and 2^nd chapters), my entire text was deleted. Gone, adios, nada no more. 

Needless to say, along with a number of daze of semi-implosion and deep Soul searching, I sought out various technicians in my area and send-away services, attempting to retrieve my lost content. Alas, to no avail. The whole hard drive was corrupted. Toast.

It was like taking a direct hit to my Heart, never mind the nuts. I felt somehow thwarted, blocked and even cosmically cursed. I went into a spell of strong self-incrimination, coming to doubt my own energy, intentions and abilities to follow through to reach my goal of getting this Sacred Masculine material out to the world. It began a period where I got to see a number of aspects of who I am, where I’ve come from and how I show up in the face of adversity.

Much to my relief, I didn’t go on a 2 week binge, trying to soothe my doubts with whatever substances I could find. To be sure, in the old daze, I sure would have. I got right back into my Spiritual practice, my physical, emotional and mental disciplines and routines – what I call my ‘Constitutionals.’  I still felt knocked down and blown off course, however, I didn’t feel personally defeated. And yet, I just couldn’t go back to writing again …

It was like the wind got kicked out of me, leaving me questioning, yet again, if I was made for this work, if I was up to the task. Mind you, this has been an extremely long haul in this life and I have to believe, in previous life times as well. Without being too self-serving or grandiose, to bring in a very new frequency such as this, all in hopes of embodying such an immense presence as the Sacred Masculine is quite actually, a really big deal. At least for me it’s been.

After first being introduced to this quest back in 1997 and being singled out by my initiator/teacher/mentor Nichole Christine, being asked to carry forth the torch of the Sacred Masculine, it’s been a huge, uphill climb ever since. I mean really, ass kicking, big time. To do this work isn’t the same as learning a marketable skill or selling real estate or acting on stage. In fact, it’s not selling or acting at all. To do this work requires embodying the Presence of this within yourself. At least more than enough, more than the other nonsense.

Mind you, this Presence is not gender-specific. The masculine consciousness (or more likely, unconsciousness), lives in all of us, women and men alike. For whatever reason I signed up to do this work, karmicly speaking - please believe me on this – more often than not, it’s has been a major drag. Seriously. The irony of calling in a higher, deeper frequency, such as loving kindness for instance, is as you do, all that is not loving kindness, gets driven up to the surface to heal and clear. As in: the brighter the Light, the darker the Shadow that shows itself. Go figure.

And oh my golly, have I had a load of shit to clear this life. Anyway, the feeling of being sideswiped, self-sabotaged all over again, hit me like a steel 2X4, smack between the eyes. It made me question myself and my faith in my self. It made me wonder if I would ever step up and get out from under (up until now), the dark, black shroud of my own significant, self-worth issues. In this and I believe is so for all of us sooner than later, it put me right back in a primal choice-point to choose anew.

Indeed, the only way out is through … I later tried to pick up the trail and continue writing but my drive just wasn’t there. How to build upon text and content when I wasn’t even sure what I’d previously written? It was like trying to put in the second story windows on a new house when the foundation wasn’t even laid. I simply couldn’t do it and chalked it up to yet another failed attempt to show up for a larger purpose than just living my life, by and for myself and personal self-interests.

In this, I know disappointment all too well. I know the feeling of not having whatever it takes to fulfill, what I’ve come to recognize is a deep seated, Soul mission. I know the Heartbreak of just not being good enough. And it so sucks. Down to my core.

But hey, today’s a brand new day! In fact, we’ve just had a New Moon, the first of the solar New Year. This is prime-time inception time, folks. To begin a project now is said to be extremely fortuitous and very well accented by the cosmic forces at play. And so I have.

This blog initiates a new wave for me, coming on the current I began on this past Vernal Equinox (March 20^th), when I launched a meetup group here in NYC called Awakening The Sacred Masculine in NYC. The following Sunday, my friend Alan Steinfeld invited me to sit on a Sacred Sexuality panel at the Whole Life Expo where I was able to, not just speak the lofty words but effortlessly transmit this current to the those attending. 

What a gas to be fully present and transparent enough to not hardly feel an iota of concern as to what was going to come out of my mouth. I’ll share more on this in upcoming blogs, however, as I send out word for the next ASM in NYC meetup this Thursday (meetup.com - please check it out), I can only say THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU!

No one said it was supposed to be easy, just worth it. And so it is.
Thank You &
Love To Us All ~

PS I invite you to share these posts with anyone you feel would benefit and if you feel inspired, to write your feedback insights through the ‘Comment’ key on this blog. Also, please check out my work, Heart Tantra - The Attunement Session - on my web site heartantra.com. I offer in-person sessions here in the NYC area and absentee or long-distance work if you don't. Always Blessings On Your Way!