A Grace Place ~

Isn’t this what we’re all searching, hoping and praying for – to be in an everlasting Grace place? I know I am. Ever since I heard my first satsang, my first Spiritual discourse umpteen years ago, I was hooked. Actually, I was captivated and ignited down to my toes, hearing not so much the words, rather the resonance and deeper meanings contained in the words spoken. Here, my Sacred began revealing Itself to me. 

In this, either you get the calling to Awaken or perhaps it lingers a bit, rebounding around your consciousness waiting to take seed, though then again, maybe it just passes you by altogether, delayed for another lifetime.

No worries. We all have eternity to get It, to return to our Sacred, our Grace place. But I always wonder, why wait? Speaking from an extensive familiarity (and a lot of past life regression work, inner visions and visceral-rich memories), I can say, it certainly feels like it’s taken that long already. 

If an old Soul is perhaps simply a slow learner, whatever time or distance eternally traveled in a Soul’s evolution to eventually return Home, as in living in a state of Grace - is illusory to begin with. This being the most basic question: how can there be such a thing as ‘time’ – past or future – if there is only NOWNOWNOW, endlessly unfolding as this present moment? Huh?! That’s the paradox principle for you ...

Recently in my life, with so much in flux and oddly, not nearly enough going on, I’ve asked myself – in my perfect world – what would I most like to be feeling, experiencing and doing right now? Yes, a question that certainly covers a lot of territory, though for me, ‘at the end of the day’ it inevitably comes down to always living in a state of Grace. No matter what. The really good stuff, the Prime Time Blessings, each and every day. One way or another, it’s the ringer for me. 

As well you know, ultimately, it’s not the things you possess, the places you go or the company you keep, it’s the you you are, amidst it all. If not this, it’s still bouncing around the Maya bush, expecting things to be different, disappointed things never are.

I’ve asked myself what exactly is Grace anyway - can you say – and to this, what are its qualities? Is it a person who loves us, a place, a time of age in life where everything worked out just so? As I’ve spent more years consciously alive, it’s come to represent a state of epiphany, a Blessed state of awareness that’s always removed, above and beyond, from the present conditions at hand. 

I’ve experienced it as a profound level of consciousness that’s independent from the immediate moment. It always creates a feeling of expansiveness, space and incredible ease. It’s a feeling of being held, protected and connected to the deeper mysteries of my Sacred and the Divine I Am. It is The Beloved's love loving me.

Always having had a strong personality (a more socially acceptable way of saying a big ego), it wasn’t so much about wanting something as just wanting more – or different – or just another. Or all three at once. I really don’t suppose this is so uncommon, after all. As an example, it’s beyond amazing (and likelihood) that I made it out of the 80’s alive. Seriously. 

Having landed in NYC in 1980 in a hard knuckle neighborhood in a very crazy time, for year’s bartending till 4am, coming home by noon, I remember the stagger-homes well enough. Mostly.

For anyone who didn’t live in NYC’s East Village way back then, you have no idea. It was a big city, wild west on crack. And a whole lot more. Anyway, to not have destroyed myself on those many long nights and fits of expensive extremes, proves my point. Although my definition has since evolved, those times too were Grace filled to the max. Why so? 

It’s because in every cell of my Being, I believe it’s been my Heart that’s always tipped the balance of fate in my favor - if only because I never had the Shadow need to screw over or take advantage of others. I was a kindly addict. And believe me, this has made all the difference.

This is especially so considering the energetic and karmic baggage I brought into this life.  Let’s say in the illusion of time, specifically the past, the places we’ve been, with those we’ve been with, all those moments inevitably leave a wake of Soul memories reverberating and echoing in us. For all concerned. 

This karmic trail winds through all our lives, from the grandest of cosmic levels to the most pedantic. However, in our daily, personal encounters, the immediate people nearby have very likely been with us many times before. And vise a versa.

What keeps reenacting in our primary relationships are the ongoing choice-points playing out over and over again. Do we meet these decisive and defining moments from a Grace place or continue reacting from our hurts, sending the ball of karmic debt bouncing along into the next lifetime. What ends the rollercoaster ride is Grace. 

I believe it’s the Grace I choose to express in how I act with others that changes, enhances and evolves my Soul’s growth on Earth. As the saying goes: to know better, means you have to do better. Great. Up until now, that's sure been way easier said than done.

... to be continued …

Thank You & Love To Us All ~

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