Funny how the Mystery never follows our rules or fulfills our
plans. Not ever exactly, anyway. Take Grace for instance. Is there anything
more elusive, more enchanting and mystical I wonder? It’s like The Holy Spirit –
what the heck is it?! Does your idea
of this blessed satori state mean consistently getting your desires met, just
the way it always feels good - don’t I wish - and that the fickle finger of
Fate (Grace’s not so glamorous, half-brother) ever smiles upon you, no matter
what?
If you’ve lived past the age of naïveté and certainly innocence,
surely you’ve grown out of this enchanting fairytale. If you’ve chosen the path
of Awakening your Sacred you also know, the knock-downs and drag-outs have
proven as valuable, if not more so, than your favorite highlight moments,
sitting comfy on easy street. Believe me, I’m all about extended vacations and
do my very best to live each day like on Holiday and yet, looking back, it’s
been the most difficult experiences in my life I’ve grown the most from.
A seasoned Soul knows the low points are what sharpened our
focus to have us get on up in the
first place – and continued busting our ass, when necessary, to keep us doing
so. Through thick and thin, life has taught me the only way out is through.
To actualize awakening my Sacred, my
deepest healing has come from loving my most unlovable selves. These were the
ones I hated the most about me. Simply put: my salvation has come from forgiving myself of absolutely
everything - though most of all, it’s being grateful for all of it, just as it is. This is the master stroke.
This more gritty and less convenient path isn’t so preferred by
those who’ve yet to truly weather the titanic storms of their own ego’s meltdown.
And I don’t mean heavily dented or worn down a bit. These hazardous crossings into
the murky, unknown waters of your unconscious, your Shadow (and yes, sinking
miserably in the process) are the crucial passages in making your Hero and Heroine’s
journey Home. If it were easy, we’d all be fully awakened, not to mention happy.
However you call it, to get out the other side, you’re gonna
have to walk through the flames of your severe self-judgment and the
fire of your shitty self-worth. Or at the very least, be willing to. The boxing adage: you get knocked down to learn how to get back up is thankfully
not every Soul’s prime directive, though for those who qualify, it’s been this
way.
Some of us just have tougher material to heal, that's all, though by no means have I had it really hard. Not with what I've seen others go through, that's for sure. This sense
of being out of sorts in the world is nothing new to me or for any of us, for
that matter. I’ve often felt off step with the drum rolls many seem to easily
follow, having wondered what is wrong
with me for not being like them. Sound familiar?
Having had a Godzilla-sized inner critic to contend with, it’s
been a conflictual struggle coming to terms with this enigma. Having carried
the ‘not good enough’ stigma into this life,
I had to pivot it to actually heal it. I had to love it back whole again. Without
this, no exquisite magic grows. This has been and remains, the work of my awakening.
As such and like so many, I’ve had to transform the heavier, meaner and more
addicted parts of myself to do so. As only love can break your Heart, only love
can heal it again. I've found my Sacred within my Heart that held my pain. This is a price to this precious gift and one you’ll have to
dearly earn.
And this too is Grace, you better believe. As a man calling in
the highest Presence I know, all to awaken and embody my Sacred
Masculine/Feminine, you name it, Grace has taught me the clearest reflection of
Itself is knowing I Am always resting in It - however whenever
wherever I happen to be. No matter what. Especially when I’m in a tight, discontented
mood, feeling things aren’t going my way and with this attitude, probably never
will. Mind you, many times in my life, this wasn’t an especially unique mood. Over
the years, it’s one I’ve spent all too much time in, I must say.
For me, the doorway out of Funkville also became my greatest gift
back to God. My sincerity – and willingness
to act on it is the key. This is what
completes the embrace. (Grace!). It’s said, the Beloved will cross endless Universes
to reach you but you have to take your next step. Plain and simple.
Whatever it is, you gotta
move forward. However this is for you – RIGHT NOW IN YOUR LIFE – with what all
you’ve got going on, you have to be willing to move towards the Light of your Self.
Yes, you will have to act, though a significant interior shift or opening counts just as much.
… to be continued …
Thank
You & Love To Us All ~
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Blessings On Your Way, Keith